learning about the skin & all the normal/abnormal things that happen to it
i use one of the best photo systems in the world
my co-worker, daphne, is awesome
i work with a lady named bjork
my collegues are a community & we have lunches together when we can
the prez of my hospital was recruited to work with obama & serves on his team!
i'm autonomous
there are so many plants here that are thriving - good for the soul
i can listen to music & do things at my own pace
i go in on surgeries & calm patients down while taking their photos
someone comes in w/gloves & cleans my desk area
i do not have to answer the phone often
i work hours that work with my life
people smile around here
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
declaration of human rights
OUR RIGHTS -
play on brother. play on sister. let's make this world the best we can imagine it to be.
play on brother. play on sister. let's make this world the best we can imagine it to be.
Monday, December 8, 2008
convos w/kei: pt 3: sensual beauty
tonight's thoughts: being sexy, sensual, and being a womanhow is it that kei & i have been lacking these traits recently? thoughts of womanhood made me feel ill - first visual thoughts: old, haggardly, fat, ugly, gross, child-birthing -- this is ridiculous!
our best friends growing up, through college, and recently have been men! my dad, drew & male neighbors were my best pals growing up. steve, luis, and julian have been my closest pals in the last years- not too much to learn about being a woman when i'm surrounded with men. many of my close female friends are not feminine. my mom used to use oil of olay & i thought it was so feminine, but she stopped long ago. my gram is more of a cute lil lady that comes across as more powerful than bouncers, not a classy Audrey-look-alike. note to self: my very feminine friends are no accident - i insert them into my life as a possible feminine filler and then totally resist their girli-ness! lightbulb moment: this is why men have strong Asian & European fetishes- they ARE SEXY FEMALES!!!! guys want women - not kids or tomboys! they want a sensuous deep engaging look, light touches that flirt with possibility, and to be tied up & taken for a ride. this is sexy. this is me...sometimes...not always.
are American women losing their femininity? in this new chapter of our culture, American women are in competition with men more then ever. instead of being different, we are fitting in with them. our clothing has changed: suits are in, jeans are in, comfort is in. sexy has taken a backseat. we are surrounded by men we should not date (in work places), surround ourselves with vulgarities, and we put up emotional walls & have forgotten how to be women!
is it a wonder these american guys i've dated/been with are totally into asian women? likely not. when i was dating sam he told me i was one of the most feminine woman he's ever dated & so sexy (which shocked & touched me); after a date with trevor i totally felt like a woman (this also made a huge impression); entering a banquet with adrian i felt like a regal princess (apparently the moment i became open to an affair). it appears that when sexiness disappears, so do they. european and asian men seem to have more patience & consideration- they see the whole me & appreciate me for me. reverse correlation? not sure.
there are definitely times when this sensuous, sexy, beautiful, romantic side is there. but today, i sat across the table from a woman who looked very similar to me and i thought she was stunning, sexy, and classy. we wore such similar clothes & looked so similar, but i did not feel sexy myself. what's going on here?
two weeks ago one of my coaches in my self-expression class told me i was a coy mistress & this weekend i totally realized it! i have played with guys! i flirt but nothing else. i literally smile & skip away. why? maybe i've closed up the idea of being vulnerable. but with vulnerability, intimacy is possible. why am i not? fear of them thinking i am not good enough perhaps. hidden thoughts: i am not fun enough, interesting enough, knowledgeable enough, womanly enough, exotic enough, beautiful enough, funny enough, artistic enough, classy enough, i do not like the sound of my own voice...oh that sucks. that's all not working for me.
i want to seduce someone -to be loving, vulnerable, sexy, sensual, and be real. am i ready for a really successful relationship? soon, yes. i totally was free last year & had a very beautiful, soul-inspiring, intensely sensual relationship, but after mis-communication and emotionally closing up it went downhill. i guess i still have to just let this go.
what is my plan? i ripped out magazine photos of what i think is sexy & sensual. i am posting these up as a reminder. be classy, romantic, sensual, and sexy. no more 'coy, cute kid' mentality. ask my feminine pals for advice. continue working on my body-tone. keep lips soft & sensual & no more peeling! keep groomed. wear clothes that highlight my shoulders and neck work. no more playing. !!basta ya!! commit to making romance successful filled with honor & care. date a fun, spirited, sexy, caring, loving, direct man with a commanding, inspirational, gentle, and generous personality. my goal of writing this: to bring some inspiration into life- to make sensuality beautiful and present.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
convos w/kei: part 2: sexy secrets
today marked the victoria's secret fashion show - a sexy day for all watching. my body sculpting class right before the show was an added bonus. i love spending time w/kei & giggling like kids, drinking tea, and sharing sex secrets.sexiness: what's up with it? where did we get the idea of what is sexy and how to be sexy? why do i feel it at times, not at others. sometimes guys see me as sexy & i cannot imagine how at the moment. is it in my face, lips, eyes, walk, breasts, legs? is it the freedom i give off at the moment, an expression, or what i'm (not) wearing? whatever it is, it feels good. there have been definite times when i see i'm sexy. sometimes it happens when i'm walking down the street smiling or dancing or singing to a song, other times it's in the heat of the moment & i look at myself and think, 'oh damn! nice body kim!'
to add to these sentiments, my goal: lose 14 lbs, tone my arms, regain my 2 pack & oblique lines, & firm up those inner thighs. i'm working on a self-portrait project to showcase my body & these changes. for the moment, this chick will serve as inspiration.
frenchies
i'm really gettin into french hip hop: oxmo puccino and shurik'N
both have a nice blends of string backdrops
think a chill blend of wyclef & wu-tang
both have a nice blends of string backdrops
think a chill blend of wyclef & wu-tang
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
A winter clearing.
I was looking out the window on Sunday (post my fall). I hated the look of 'death.' Dried up, empty trees, washed-out white/grey sky: a bleak future. Then I remembered my Indian music class and the importance of the 'rest' note (the hand wave, 'empty' note, the 'zero'). Indians liken it to emptiness/death in winter. I realized the freedom in death: creating a clearing for life to come.
My own zero:
I just got back from a farewell to Andre. He is going back to Barcelona for a month or so. For the past several months, I have had such a heavy weight on my shoulders. A guy that I barely know or hang out with is so into me. He has good qualities: pampering, generous, artistic, European, good friendships, open, likes to dance, likes music, friendly, insightful, and wants to marry me. And what is wrong with that? Nothing, but I was so uneasy & didn't believe it. I also had feelings for someone else & did not want to let anyone else in. I couldn't deal so I took to pushing him away; I would stress myself out so much I would feel queasy. When we hung out, I cried, out of being so uneasy and feeling guilty for not liking him. So today, unsure if he was already on the plane or not, I stopped by to get my Ipod, give him a b-day gift & say ciao. It was awkward at first; again, I felt the heavy weight. He was willing to miss his flight & not go back home to stay here with me. All I had to do was say the word. I did not want that. I thought of the movie 'Before Sunset/After Sunrise' and how romantic it was and how I had those moments with someone else years ago. A kiss that lasted for three hours, while night turned to day, while cab after cab tried to pick us up to go somewhere, while people walked their dogs, while the rain drenched us to the bone, but no, not that, not tonight.
Over dessert at our local restaurant, I asked him why he liked me; I told him I didn't think it was me he liked, but perhaps the idea of me, and that I thought he didn't really even know me well enough to like me so much. We spoke openly and honestly. What he likes about me are things that I like about & see in myself. What he sees as a weakness is also what I see in myself (my lack of believing in myself is my own barrier to my greatness). It turns out he does know me. He has turned the page and let go of the idea of being together, but still likes & loves me for who I am. I appreciated this conversation immensely, for the opening it left me. The weight has lifted. The leaves of guilt have fallen away and I am free. I do not have to try so hard to like someone when I do not & that is OK. He lifted me up & hugged me goodbye. For the first time I finally felt comfortable with how I was with him, just me. All it took was 20 minutes or so to create this & now a budding friendship is there. Very sweet.
I am very comfortable right now - cleaning out the dead leaves in my own soul. I feel as free & light as I did this past January. It was a time when a lot opened up for me in so many ways & when I learned that everything is possible. I was free & open to love & grow & make incredible changes in my life & career. The past few months I closed up, but I see again that I have no anchors, no weights, simply freedom & friendships, light, clarity, and a beautiful fun ride in my boat. This is the time for me to grow & have fun & spread happiness & be creative. I am working on new photo & film & music & bike projects. I feel like a child again, just playing in life. Who knows what will happen?! And when adding someone into my comfy, cozy life boat, I will do so with ease, vulnerability, and graciousness. It sounds like silk.
My own zero:
I just got back from a farewell to Andre. He is going back to Barcelona for a month or so. For the past several months, I have had such a heavy weight on my shoulders. A guy that I barely know or hang out with is so into me. He has good qualities: pampering, generous, artistic, European, good friendships, open, likes to dance, likes music, friendly, insightful, and wants to marry me. And what is wrong with that? Nothing, but I was so uneasy & didn't believe it. I also had feelings for someone else & did not want to let anyone else in. I couldn't deal so I took to pushing him away; I would stress myself out so much I would feel queasy. When we hung out, I cried, out of being so uneasy and feeling guilty for not liking him. So today, unsure if he was already on the plane or not, I stopped by to get my Ipod, give him a b-day gift & say ciao. It was awkward at first; again, I felt the heavy weight. He was willing to miss his flight & not go back home to stay here with me. All I had to do was say the word. I did not want that. I thought of the movie 'Before Sunset/After Sunrise' and how romantic it was and how I had those moments with someone else years ago. A kiss that lasted for three hours, while night turned to day, while cab after cab tried to pick us up to go somewhere, while people walked their dogs, while the rain drenched us to the bone, but no, not that, not tonight.
Over dessert at our local restaurant, I asked him why he liked me; I told him I didn't think it was me he liked, but perhaps the idea of me, and that I thought he didn't really even know me well enough to like me so much. We spoke openly and honestly. What he likes about me are things that I like about & see in myself. What he sees as a weakness is also what I see in myself (my lack of believing in myself is my own barrier to my greatness). It turns out he does know me. He has turned the page and let go of the idea of being together, but still likes & loves me for who I am. I appreciated this conversation immensely, for the opening it left me. The weight has lifted. The leaves of guilt have fallen away and I am free. I do not have to try so hard to like someone when I do not & that is OK. He lifted me up & hugged me goodbye. For the first time I finally felt comfortable with how I was with him, just me. All it took was 20 minutes or so to create this & now a budding friendship is there. Very sweet.
I am very comfortable right now - cleaning out the dead leaves in my own soul. I feel as free & light as I did this past January. It was a time when a lot opened up for me in so many ways & when I learned that everything is possible. I was free & open to love & grow & make incredible changes in my life & career. The past few months I closed up, but I see again that I have no anchors, no weights, simply freedom & friendships, light, clarity, and a beautiful fun ride in my boat. This is the time for me to grow & have fun & spread happiness & be creative. I am working on new photo & film & music & bike projects. I feel like a child again, just playing in life. Who knows what will happen?! And when adding someone into my comfy, cozy life boat, I will do so with ease, vulnerability, and graciousness. It sounds like silk.
Monday, December 1, 2008
inspiration!
ONE LEG CHUCK!!
I saw this dude play union square subway the day before he left for his trip back to California, getting ready for the birth of his child. He was so positive & free & he saw his own work as a great contribution to society. I bought his CD & love it! Here, this one -leg Chuck sat, microphone hooked up to his wheelchair, guitar strapped to him & he was singin his heart out, with reggae flowing through the subway walls- it was phenomenal!
Love on, brother!
See this guy Owen's post (here) for another write up of Chuck.
I saw this dude play union square subway the day before he left for his trip back to California, getting ready for the birth of his child. He was so positive & free & he saw his own work as a great contribution to society. I bought his CD & love it! Here, this one -leg Chuck sat, microphone hooked up to his wheelchair, guitar strapped to him & he was singin his heart out, with reggae flowing through the subway walls- it was phenomenal!
Love on, brother!
See this guy Owen's post (here) for another write up of Chuck.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
death to my cami :(
upon waking fully refreshed & looking out my window & seeing a thin covering of snow i had a genius idea! take pictures of the first snow fall in my beautiful home-town. deep green grass with little white bursts- it was beautiful! stepping outside, into my mom's jacket & out onto our beautiful newly-done deck i took a step onto a sheet of black ice. my legs slipped out from under me & i landed with my back & neck to the stairs, & my dearest cami-friend landed in a very unsettling position. the lens is busted- totally destroyed...oh the pain! i worked with it for about 30 minutes before i left, my yoga routine on the back-burner. to no avail...cami is dead :( it was my pal - i brought it around the city & world for 2 years straight -it's been to more countries & concerts than some people & seen an incredible wealth of smiles & faces of newbies & people i hold dear to my heart. it just plain sucks! my body aches, i've heard buzzing in my ear all day long, and my fingers go slightly numb at times- hopefully this all disappears tonight. even so, i'm more frustrated at not having the camera to work with. it was so handy! i've got my quality camera - to carry it around on a daily basis will be a new challenge. and as i've wanted to do for 2 years, i am going to buy a video camera - a good one w/good quality sound & get to some new projects i'm into. cami may have a second chance at being fixed; if not, there will be a burial at sea for my pal.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
why are people still going without food?!
damnit - there is no need for this anymore!
not in nyc, not in the us, not in india, not anywhere. every weekend in the restaurant i see people order more than they can eat. the portions are huge, tasty, and well-priced. people sometimes throw whole orders out, not taking them home, and not giving them to the needy. i have began a childhood dream of feeding the poor. instead of my dream of mailing my left-overs in the mailbox (kids do not realize bacteria & decay) i am now taking some left-overs from the restaurant & giving them to the needy in nyc. transportation is the number one factor in why people go without food. farms burn food they cannot sell because it is less costly than shipping it out somewhere. so...why do those in need not move closer to farms? work on farms? grow gardens? what other options are out there?! we have all we need within ourselves, including the ability to put a seed in the ground & water it & see it grow to create something life-giving. so we all have to take action to see that this is done. my bringing food can only help a few people at a time - we all need to start with ourselves.
not in nyc, not in the us, not in india, not anywhere. every weekend in the restaurant i see people order more than they can eat. the portions are huge, tasty, and well-priced. people sometimes throw whole orders out, not taking them home, and not giving them to the needy. i have began a childhood dream of feeding the poor. instead of my dream of mailing my left-overs in the mailbox (kids do not realize bacteria & decay) i am now taking some left-overs from the restaurant & giving them to the needy in nyc. transportation is the number one factor in why people go without food. farms burn food they cannot sell because it is less costly than shipping it out somewhere. so...why do those in need not move closer to farms? work on farms? grow gardens? what other options are out there?! we have all we need within ourselves, including the ability to put a seed in the ground & water it & see it grow to create something life-giving. so we all have to take action to see that this is done. my bringing food can only help a few people at a time - we all need to start with ourselves.
hip hop b-dang b-dang
Ludacris cd-release party w/some hot guests: gold -tooth T-pain, lip-smackin LL, Shawnna & some more katz
Monday, November 24, 2008
fun songs
these 2 guys have somewhat similar looks & after watching indah's dance performance to 'start wearing purple' while wearing a vampire mask, i could not get it out of my head all weekend- even inspired me to play with toys like a lil kid. so, here's to outrageous-ness.
gogol bordello: start wearing purple
tony ferrino: papa bendi
gogol bordello: start wearing purple
tony ferrino: papa bendi
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
get groovin w/the lee boys!
THE LEE BOYS
w/ Licorice
Tuesday December 9th
Show Starts @ 8pm | $10dos
214 sullivan street between bleeker & west 3rd.
for a glimpse of the movin & shakin that happens when watching them...see this clip (not the best quality, but you get the point)
w/ Licorice
Tuesday December 9th
Show Starts @ 8pm | $10dos
214 sullivan street between bleeker & west 3rd.
for a glimpse of the movin & shakin that happens when watching them...see this clip (not the best quality, but you get the point)
Sunday, November 16, 2008
dad's input
things may be really good & things may get really bad, notice & be okay when things are in the middle.
as cold as it gets, the spring is always going to come.
everything is relative. if you change your life, you are still going to have to deal with circumstances.
as cold as it gets, the spring is always going to come.
everything is relative. if you change your life, you are still going to have to deal with circumstances.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
to listen to
i just love the tango! so sexy & tranquil.
carlos libedinsky Narcotango
my personal fave: *vi luz y subi (i saw the light & rose...perfect song for me today).
carlos libedinsky Narcotango
my personal fave: *vi luz y subi (i saw the light & rose...perfect song for me today).
cheers to sunshine
and Care Bears with twinkles for eyes
to being in the 'here & now'
smiling, happiness, free, fun, easy-going-flow, spunk, grace, and to the lightness of being
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
love is not direct moonshine
my ode to my perfectly imperfect life... (a work in progress)quiet voice, slow-moving, gliding feet
moving & swaying to the rhythm of the beat.
at peace, at rest...then distress.
while drowning in moonshine filled with glee
i am weighed down by the anchor of general lee.
out pours my love & in pours loneliness.
my heart lives in a small, 4-chamber room
where forgotten words & kisses loom
it carries freedom in and burden out
breathe it in and breathe it out.
but while the film plays all that is possible and much more,
my documentary is a broken heart, bleeding on the floor.
i am a broken mess.
options:
support the broken-heart fund & disappear completely
regenerate & be a Care-bear with my diamond-heart necklace
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
guys at work
one day working side by side with guys- like typical guys...introduces me to a new way to see them (my missing link!). brings me back to my childhood made up game of girls vs boys & boys vs girls.
i have never really worked with (or hung out with) the average guy, just the medical folk or artsy guys - now i have a new understanding of the male race: as football players, loud, aggressive, out for the chase, and ready to pounce on those that are not interested. i guess it's best to learn this lesson some day! best be today.
i have never really worked with (or hung out with) the average guy, just the medical folk or artsy guys - now i have a new understanding of the male race: as football players, loud, aggressive, out for the chase, and ready to pounce on those that are not interested. i guess it's best to learn this lesson some day! best be today.
Monday, November 10, 2008
yes, we did!
a hell-yeah for the united states of america, the world, and all the people in it! here's to a good life, pride, and community :)
thought of the day
why are we spending an additional $150 billion on AIG when the idea of an insurance company is betting that someone is going to fail? why not donate money to businesses that promote success, inspiration, and life?
Sunday, November 9, 2008
max' show...see it before it disappears.
Details: The Cannibal Eye, Part 1
The Gallery @ New World Stages 343 West 49th Street (between 8th and 9th) 11 am to 6 pm Mon-Sat
Thursday, November 6, 2008
shine on you crazy diamond
This is the song for myself today...and from every day here-after.
I was never a fan of diamonds, actually never wanted one in my life. Lots of judgment on how socially unconscious & shallow they were, maybe even never thinking i was worthy of one. Tonight
, I declared to Jodi & myself that I am buying one-I am going to sparkle, inside & out.
I am giving up my old ways of being: my martyr-like, suffering, and self-righteous behavior was killing off any hope for a great life. pretending to be sooooo open to true happiness, inner peace, & love when inside i was terrified & non-trusting & killing myself off for so long b/c i felt like a burden & failure.
so yeah...that did not work. left me alone & depressed & anxious & physically ill. i hurt & suffocated other people along the way, too.
here's to creation time!...i will be non-judgmental, confident, and sparkling. i may slip, but this is my own polished rock to stand on. no more suffering. thank you Jodi for your patience! now my great life is unfolding, and I am creating it.
I was never a fan of diamonds, actually never wanted one in my life. Lots of judgment on how socially unconscious & shallow they were, maybe even never thinking i was worthy of one. Tonight
, I declared to Jodi & myself that I am buying one-I am going to sparkle, inside & out.I am giving up my old ways of being: my martyr-like, suffering, and self-righteous behavior was killing off any hope for a great life. pretending to be sooooo open to true happiness, inner peace, & love when inside i was terrified & non-trusting & killing myself off for so long b/c i felt like a burden & failure.
so yeah...that did not work. left me alone & depressed & anxious & physically ill. i hurt & suffocated other people along the way, too.
here's to creation time!...i will be non-judgmental, confident, and sparkling. i may slip, but this is my own polished rock to stand on. no more suffering. thank you Jodi for your patience! now my great life is unfolding, and I am creating it.
Monday, November 3, 2008
cardboard to caviar
yes... sounds impossible, but not! read up here on the Able Project.
Perhaps our green community in NYC can bring this here! We certainly have a lot of cardboard, we also have horses, ponds, gardens, and sewage!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
bjork's newbie
yes, she is in my head tonight...nothin like bjork. her new song, Nattura, here
The single was composed specifically to encourage active support for the Nattura campaign, which aims at collating and providing sustainable and eco-friendly options suitable for Iceland, and generating alternative ways to utilize it’s natural resources. cheers Bjork!
XO: we all win when we play the game
why do i try so hard, why do i care so much...when you don't seem to.
why do i let myself feel worthless, undignified, frustrated, pathetic, stupid, duped, resigned, out of control, & confused as hell?
why do i keep generating love like it exists from a fountain that knows no end? does it? sometimes i think it just might stop pumping & i will be an ugly old hag: sad & lonely & cynical... without love in my heart, for even just me alone.
at these moments i remember what i want to create in my life & in the world: abundant love & beauty & peace & inspiration. the walls glow & sparkle like diamonds (*yes!) (but so much cooler because no one gets hurt by them being there.) i am loving to everyone and they know it, just know it. i will be easy-going, calm, and smooth...i need not suffer anymore to know what it is like to be alive. i need not try living up to this idea of me being a saint by being a martyr. i will have ease & freedom, and abundance, and grace, and love, and wealth, and security...i deserve it...and so do you...we all do...
i love me and i love you. you love you and you love me. simply...just be.
foto collage: ⓒ 2008 kim boldrini
xox
oxo
xox ( i just remembered this game...play with me)
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
on boredom
quote from one of cassendre's readers...i love it!!
"someone told me once that boredom is not having confidence that there is space for your contribution. this was a very clarifying moment for me, as i get catatonically bored for no discernible reason."
"someone told me once that boredom is not having confidence that there is space for your contribution. this was a very clarifying moment for me, as i get catatonically bored for no discernible reason."
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
financial freedom
for a little at least! ;) yeah to getting myself out there & creating financial abundance -- just do it - nike is so right! ;)
Monday, October 20, 2008
movie jobs & frustration
so...here it is 1am. i am sifting through ad after ad on craigslist. my computer mouse is not working properly, my lips are dried as hell, brain is exhausted, my savings are depleted & i am financially broke. i've done well in terms of saving & spending little for eight months without much of an income. i realized today that rent this month is going to be hard to come by. sad that i actually have to sometimes rent my apt out to make enough money to live in it. this photography stint isn't up to par with financial obligations. working upstate & paying for the commute and not feeling like i'm fulfilling on my intentions of spending quality time w/the family is also bothering me, as is having a split life & always being on the road. being in close proximity does not necessarily promote emotional connection. today...i am lonely & frustrated at the moment. thus...the whole search for jobs on craigslist. though not the best way to search for a job while being in that state of mind- as nothing looks good or feasible.
how is that i was top of my class in high school, graduated from a well-established school with high grades in a double major, studied pre-med with top grades, was accepted into 2 national juried galleries with my photography, am really well-rounded, very amiable person as well as a great teacher of kids, and i am contemplating being a bike delivery person?
it's funny... it's also bullshit. it's not where i want to be at all! yes, i do love my bike, but come on! so...after conversing w/a great pal & thinking of all of the possible quick-hire jobs out there in this vast city of financial dependency, i remembered some conventional jobs that people in films have as i am fighting the thoughts. they don't really have to worry about rent & bills & such, but it's interesting how many great movies are made with characters in very average jobs...so here is a short list: sandwich delivery person; movie rental person, barista, deli-counter people, waiter, nanny, tv repair person, dog walker, street flyer distributers...well the list can go on for hours...people in the movies do not necessarily have to worry about ...pride, vanity, ego. but it's really getting me today. but alas, money in my pocket NOW is quite necessary. waiting out the medical photography job while hospital staff determines if a BA in photography is truly necessary isn't paying right now. so... do i go totally conventional, apply for nursing/PA or teacher? how do i make money with my photography, please, i really do not know? do i leave the states & teach english on a beach in middle of europe/asia/or mexico? do i find a roommate? do i take another job that i do not want just to be able to sleep & eat? no- that just isn't living...it just isn't...i wish i were my cat & had someone to take care of me right now. i am very lovable & loving. i have great ideas for social programs - sometimes i wish i were paid to put my ideas out there -like being a mayor. today, i applied for a google grant. save the world, easy, commit to a j-o-b that doesn't meet my selfish expectations, not easy for me.
venting is nice for a moment, but it doesn't really do anything... commitment...compromise...balance...organization & action. that's what i need. again, the big picture...
what do i love?
laughing, dancing, exploring the city, going to live music events, taking pictures of people, teaching people & kids, giving hi-5s, hiking, biking, swimming
who do i love to surround myself with?
good, fun people; kids; forward thinkers; people out to make a difference; artists/musicians
what do i offer that is willingly accepted?
an ear to listen, insight into photography, insight into medicine, where-to-go-city-life suggestions, travel tips, social issue ideas, artistic promotion, massages
how is that i was top of my class in high school, graduated from a well-established school with high grades in a double major, studied pre-med with top grades, was accepted into 2 national juried galleries with my photography, am really well-rounded, very amiable person as well as a great teacher of kids, and i am contemplating being a bike delivery person?
it's funny... it's also bullshit. it's not where i want to be at all! yes, i do love my bike, but come on! so...after conversing w/a great pal & thinking of all of the possible quick-hire jobs out there in this vast city of financial dependency, i remembered some conventional jobs that people in films have as i am fighting the thoughts. they don't really have to worry about rent & bills & such, but it's interesting how many great movies are made with characters in very average jobs...so here is a short list: sandwich delivery person; movie rental person, barista, deli-counter people, waiter, nanny, tv repair person, dog walker, street flyer distributers...well the list can go on for hours...people in the movies do not necessarily have to worry about ...pride, vanity, ego. but it's really getting me today. but alas, money in my pocket NOW is quite necessary. waiting out the medical photography job while hospital staff determines if a BA in photography is truly necessary isn't paying right now. so... do i go totally conventional, apply for nursing/PA or teacher? how do i make money with my photography, please, i really do not know? do i leave the states & teach english on a beach in middle of europe/asia/or mexico? do i find a roommate? do i take another job that i do not want just to be able to sleep & eat? no- that just isn't living...it just isn't...i wish i were my cat & had someone to take care of me right now. i am very lovable & loving. i have great ideas for social programs - sometimes i wish i were paid to put my ideas out there -like being a mayor. today, i applied for a google grant. save the world, easy, commit to a j-o-b that doesn't meet my selfish expectations, not easy for me.
venting is nice for a moment, but it doesn't really do anything... commitment...compromise...balance...organization & action. that's what i need. again, the big picture...
what do i love?
laughing, dancing, exploring the city, going to live music events, taking pictures of people, teaching people & kids, giving hi-5s, hiking, biking, swimming
who do i love to surround myself with?
good, fun people; kids; forward thinkers; people out to make a difference; artists/musicians
what do i offer that is willingly accepted?
an ear to listen, insight into photography, insight into medicine, where-to-go-city-life suggestions, travel tips, social issue ideas, artistic promotion, massages
creative organizations
The Bag Fund:
mission: to help support the creative process by providing artists with studio space and technical support at critical points in their life cycle.
TalentHouse:
mission: liberate the artistic community and empower them with the tools they need to succeed.
mission: to help support the creative process by providing artists with studio space and technical support at critical points in their life cycle.
TalentHouse:
mission: liberate the artistic community and empower them with the tools they need to succeed.
to check out
Guns, Germs & Steel
At the heart of Jared Diamond's Guns, Germs and Steel are the stories of apparently commonplace things, such as wheat, cattle, and writing. Diamond believes the uneven distribution of these simple elements shaped the course of global history and played a vital part in the epic story of continental competition.
At the heart of Jared Diamond's Guns, Germs and Steel are the stories of apparently commonplace things, such as wheat, cattle, and writing. Diamond believes the uneven distribution of these simple elements shaped the course of global history and played a vital part in the epic story of continental competition.
my new photo class for kids!!
A photographic journey to explore and document the quiet side of New York City. Participants will learn the basics of digital photography, Photoshop, and designing a storyline. The class will culminate in a gallery showing of their artwork.
Friday, October 17, 2008
love, simplified
this couple came into the restaurant last weekend - they were really cute together.
she ordered a turkey burger w/onions & cheese; he ordered a turkey burger
she ordered a turkey burger w/onions & cheese; he ordered a turkey burger
she asked 'do you want anything else on it, like mushrooms or cheese?'
he said, 'yeah, cheese!' i said 'it's nice that she's looking out for you.' and then she said 'i forgot, can i get raw onion on the side?' he whispered to me 'she doesn't remember it comes with it' i said 'she's a little slow to remember.' then he ordered potato skins.
and she said 'wow, potato skins, huh?'
and he said, 'yes, i have to keep you guessing. the minute you know what i'm going to do is the minute the romance is over.'
oh i love that story!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
photo documentary
Days with my Father - by Phillip Toledano...
A heartwarming documentary of dwindling life, love, and laughter at an older age.
I am including a photo that my mom took of me, to perhaps show the love that a parent has for a child. Thanks Phillip, for reminding me, that life and loved ones are so precious. Sometimes I forget too.
Bjork & Thom Yorke
Björk and Thom Yorke, two of the mightiest figures in avant pop music, will be joining forces for a good cause: protecting the Icelandic environment. Björk's camp has confirmed that the single will indeed be released on October 20 from One Little Indian.
According to text on the promo, the song "highlights a grass roots movement in Iceland to reclaim the country’s natural resources and wilderness from the hands of big business and pollution."
Great Bjork videos
According to text on the promo, the song "highlights a grass roots movement in Iceland to reclaim the country’s natural resources and wilderness from the hands of big business and pollution."
Great Bjork videos
Monday, October 13, 2008
jazz
today::: re-direct, re-fresh, re-inspire, re-member, re-create, re-generate myself...
like jazz that weaves in & out & all around, i'm just gonna let my mind ride & enjoy the wave while i can. i/we (humans) are not perfect & i have to remind myself that is oK.
Friday, October 10, 2008
AIDS in the US
the US ranks between Zambia & Zimbabwe in the number of HIV cases... pretty scary! Find out more here.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
art day today!
Must be an art-kinda day...all in all...
Well, from an invite to a clothing charity event, to a website I cannot believe really exists, I was linked to this site of Tara McPherson - she's got some really great poster art, as shown here.
Also went to several Chelsea Galleries & a great, great jazz show! Of particular interest in the galleries were Aperture, ArtGate, and Ceres.
Aperture has a documentary series of the 1968 invasion of Czechoslovakia by the Soviet Union. The Czech President didn't realize they were being invaded & told his countrymates to chill out & let the Soviets do their thing- do not put up a fight...how horrible! Josef Koudelka shot the event during the first 7 days & the photos were sneaked out of the country & into the US. What an ordeal. The photos, though shot while an invasion is happening, are eerily tranquil & beautiful. They show the desire to connect to the troops, saddness at loss, and your usual war anger, but it seems as though there is a filter of complete calmness exhibited from the artist's eye. This really is a must see.
Ceres gallery has some very creative altered landscape work and great use of silkscreening mixed medias. It was a complete inspiration & creative push for myself & my friend. Of note, the owner, Stephanie, is a lovely woman to chat with & full of insight & education.
ArtGate has some great Chinese artists with a focus on magical realism: angels with blood-stained wings, and men upside down seemingly supported by another person.
Then off to PLG Art's montly: Jazz at the Ink Well in BK- featuring the Akie Bermiss Quartet, and damn, did they play some excellent tunes! A mix of funk, jazz, & hip hop - a stellar mix for me, as I am still a newbie w/jazz & cannot take extended play. They were energetic, inspirational, & seamless. You would have no idea it was their first time jamming together! Quick list of songs - my funny valentine, if i only had a brain, & sir duke. I posted the videos here, may you bless yourself & see them. I was surprised by an artist friend & his daughter from Berlin- great people!
Well, from an invite to a clothing charity event, to a website I cannot believe really exists, I was linked to this site of Tara McPherson - she's got some really great poster art, as shown here.Also went to several Chelsea Galleries & a great, great jazz show! Of particular interest in the galleries were Aperture, ArtGate, and Ceres.
Aperture has a documentary series of the 1968 invasion of Czechoslovakia by the Soviet Union. The Czech President didn't realize they were being invaded & told his countrymates to chill out & let the Soviets do their thing- do not put up a fight...how horrible! Josef Koudelka shot the event during the first 7 days & the photos were sneaked out of the country & into the US. What an ordeal. The photos, though shot while an invasion is happening, are eerily tranquil & beautiful. They show the desire to connect to the troops, saddness at loss, and your usual war anger, but it seems as though there is a filter of complete calmness exhibited from the artist's eye. This really is a must see.
Ceres gallery has some very creative altered landscape work and great use of silkscreening mixed medias. It was a complete inspiration & creative push for myself & my friend. Of note, the owner, Stephanie, is a lovely woman to chat with & full of insight & education.
ArtGate has some great Chinese artists with a focus on magical realism: angels with blood-stained wings, and men upside down seemingly supported by another person.
Then off to PLG Art's montly: Jazz at the Ink Well in BK- featuring the Akie Bermiss Quartet, and damn, did they play some excellent tunes! A mix of funk, jazz, & hip hop - a stellar mix for me, as I am still a newbie w/jazz & cannot take extended play. They were energetic, inspirational, & seamless. You would have no idea it was their first time jamming together! Quick list of songs - my funny valentine, if i only had a brain, & sir duke. I posted the videos here, may you bless yourself & see them. I was surprised by an artist friend & his daughter from Berlin- great people!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
dreamworld
another dream, my life looked at through the looking glass. not digital love, but dream love perhaps. or perhaps life mastered by digital brain waves? playing in an orchestra on a boat- it was really great. here's to the 2 lives of me. not gonna make it mean anything on this side of the mirror.
Insight from pops at a perfect time: Aldous Huxley: the doors of perception. This is going to be my new art project: to project the life behind my mind using the open-slotted doors I found last nite.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
LOUDER-
just got back & the word is ----go see it!!!!!
visually & auditorially stimulating. a cacophony of sound (electronic & man-made) visuals (movies & shadows). even the simple backdrop of the people doing their performace art is incredible! ear buds are necessary, but provided. GO TO VIETNAM on PS122.
visually & auditorially stimulating. a cacophony of sound (electronic & man-made) visuals (movies & shadows). even the simple backdrop of the people doing their performace art is incredible! ear buds are necessary, but provided. GO TO VIETNAM on PS122.
good theatre
At PS122:::
Verdensteatret: Louder
For their new production, Louder, Verdensteatret went on a long journey to Vietnam and the Mekong-river. By combining robotics, video, sound, music, shadow play, object theatre and new technology, the performance takes the audience on a journey where reason ends and the spectator is drawn into an endless transformation through crossing lines of images and stories.
Thursday, September 25th @ 8pm
Friday, September 26th @ 8pm
Saturday, September 27th @ 8pm
Sunday, September 28th @8pm
Verdensteatret: Louder
For their new production, Louder, Verdensteatret went on a long journey to Vietnam and the Mekong-river. By combining robotics, video, sound, music, shadow play, object theatre and new technology, the performance takes the audience on a journey where reason ends and the spectator is drawn into an endless transformation through crossing lines of images and stories.
Thursday, September 25th @ 8pm
Friday, September 26th @ 8pm
Saturday, September 27th @ 8pm
Sunday, September 28th @8pm
shwa...revisited
so i put a posting about this band SHWA up 2 years ago & just found that the band stopped by this site...
and they're playing in the city again- stop by. they've got some good tunes. a mix of neil young & matthew sweet.
Oct 4 2008 8:00P Warehouse Songs Live Recording Session Brooklyn, New York
Oct 9 2008 10:00P Rockwood Music Hall New York, New York
Oct 25 2008 11:30A American University Washington, Washington DC
Oct 25 2008 9:00P IOTA club and cafe Arlington, Virginia
and they're playing in the city again- stop by. they've got some good tunes. a mix of neil young & matthew sweet.
Oct 4 2008 8:00P Warehouse Songs Live Recording Session Brooklyn, New York
Oct 9 2008 10:00P Rockwood Music Hall New York, New York
Oct 25 2008 11:30A American University Washington, Washington DC
Oct 25 2008 9:00P IOTA club and cafe Arlington, Virginia
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
through the looking glass...
my dad made me a belated b-day mix featuring this song (song for you)...it's so beautiful & so special, coming from him :) it's been a long time since someone made me a music mix. i love giving them, but i learned i love getting them too, esp. when it's filled with love. the song reminds me of what it was like sharing my life with people, like the day-to-day stuff. i don't really have that anymore living the life i have right now. i'm sola - in various facets. it's good in ways, but i miss the human touch.
i'm gettin' all sentimental & outside-the-box thinking today... i've had lots of dreams recently that visually play out a different life i may be leading on the other side of the looking glass. i wish i had a video camera in my brain at all times- to record things like this. i guess writing is the best, but sometimes the memories are too faded to recall. a friend once told me about quantum physics & how we can be living multiple lives out at the same time. i wonder if that 'other me' is happy on that side of the wall, with that life. i hope so.
sometimes i wonder...?who have i become?...my life is so different than it was, and so different than i thought it might be. some ways improved, some ways not so much. there is so much to think about in life. "a quantum superposition is the combination of all the possible states of a system" --- what are all the possible states of my own system, inside & outside of the system in which i live...inside the system of my dreams, outside my reality...inside the systems of my mind, heart, & soul...and they're not even always connected...
In other news: Max Tzinman's The Cannibal Eye, Part One, opened today at New World Gallery and continues on exhibition through November 14th. I appreciate his work & him as a person, artist, and mentor. He has several pieces of digital art that are very dark & twisted up, including a triptych of 'inferno.' (another inspiration to finally read the book!) others are sad & speak of loss. 'Tiergarten' was the piece that touched me the most. It is a b&w photo of a park (could be anywhere, but it is in berlin) with a walkway guided with light posts. there is a couple walking ahead & an older man looking in the distance. to the side of the image there is a quote that i cannot quite exactly remember...but something to the effect of "my life is good, but it was so full when you were in it." it hit the soft spot. yes...again...love & loss...they got all twisted up in my head way back when & it strikes me like lightning.
while searching for this quote, i got a blink into the life of someone who is definitely not the 'other me' - got me giggling. actually, i am kinda addicted now...enjoy:
then i went to this one too:
and finally... this one (includes hiccuping baby-in-stomach...)
a great song: "song for you" by Michael Buble Featuring Chris Botti
i'm gettin' all sentimental & outside-the-box thinking today... i've had lots of dreams recently that visually play out a different life i may be leading on the other side of the looking glass. i wish i had a video camera in my brain at all times- to record things like this. i guess writing is the best, but sometimes the memories are too faded to recall. a friend once told me about quantum physics & how we can be living multiple lives out at the same time. i wonder if that 'other me' is happy on that side of the wall, with that life. i hope so.
sometimes i wonder...?who have i become?...my life is so different than it was, and so different than i thought it might be. some ways improved, some ways not so much. there is so much to think about in life. "a quantum superposition is the combination of all the possible states of a system" --- what are all the possible states of my own system, inside & outside of the system in which i live...inside the system of my dreams, outside my reality...inside the systems of my mind, heart, & soul...and they're not even always connected...
In other news: Max Tzinman's The Cannibal Eye, Part One, opened today at New World Gallery and continues on exhibition through November 14th. I appreciate his work & him as a person, artist, and mentor. He has several pieces of digital art that are very dark & twisted up, including a triptych of 'inferno.' (another inspiration to finally read the book!) others are sad & speak of loss. 'Tiergarten' was the piece that touched me the most. It is a b&w photo of a park (could be anywhere, but it is in berlin) with a walkway guided with light posts. there is a couple walking ahead & an older man looking in the distance. to the side of the image there is a quote that i cannot quite exactly remember...but something to the effect of "my life is good, but it was so full when you were in it." it hit the soft spot. yes...again...love & loss...they got all twisted up in my head way back when & it strikes me like lightning.
while searching for this quote, i got a blink into the life of someone who is definitely not the 'other me' - got me giggling. actually, i am kinda addicted now...enjoy:
then i went to this one too:
and finally... this one (includes hiccuping baby-in-stomach...)
a great song: "song for you" by Michael Buble Featuring Chris Botti
Thursday, September 18, 2008
a glorious day
for so many reasons.
here's to a woman & song w/a box of glory; singing the insides out:::
Im so tired, of playing
Playing with this bow and arrow
Gonna give my heart away
Leave it to the other girls to play
For Ive been a temptress too long
Just. .
Give me a reason to love you
Give me a reason to be ee, a woman
I just wanna be a woman
From this time, unchained
We're all looking at a different picture
Thru this new frame of mind
A thousand flowers could bloom
Move over, and give us some room
Give me a reason to love you
Give me a reason to be ee, a woman
I just wanna be a woman
So don't you stop, being a man
Just take a little look from our side when you can
Sow a little tenderness
No matter if you cry
Give me a reason to love you
Give me a reason to be ee, a woman
Its all I wanna be is all woman
For this is the beginning of forever and ever
Its time to move over
here's to a woman & song w/a box of glory; singing the insides out:::
Im so tired, of playing
Playing with this bow and arrow
Gonna give my heart away
Leave it to the other girls to play
For Ive been a temptress too long
Just. .
Give me a reason to love you
Give me a reason to be ee, a woman
I just wanna be a woman
From this time, unchained
We're all looking at a different picture
Thru this new frame of mind
A thousand flowers could bloom
Move over, and give us some room
Give me a reason to love you
Give me a reason to be ee, a woman
I just wanna be a woman
So don't you stop, being a man
Just take a little look from our side when you can
Sow a little tenderness
No matter if you cry
Give me a reason to love you
Give me a reason to be ee, a woman
Its all I wanna be is all woman
For this is the beginning of forever and ever
Its time to move over
tent-cities
some people put up tents & it's called vacation.
some people put up tents & it's call homelessness...
perhaps property-less or ownership-less or someone-else-not-profiting-from-you-sleeping-there is another insight.
some people put up tents & it's call homelessness...
perhaps property-less or ownership-less or someone-else-not-profiting-from-you-sleeping-there is another insight.
to see!! the passion project: joan of arc
go to PS122 and just see the passion project, a performance art, 3D film & music piece based on a film about Joan of Arc. maybe it'll move you, maybe it won't. spend a couple of bucks & see for yourself.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
my world via 2 songs
this is the juxtaposition of my world, via 2 songs:
(radiohead: let down)
and
(john mayer: your body is a wonderland)
(radiohead: let down)
and
(john mayer: your body is a wonderland)
sleep awake: an experience
what a great idea. Sleep Awake: an experience composed by Terence Nance.
people lay in bed with each other or with random strangers, in a very relaxed atmosphere while images and sound dance through their heads. it evokes a sense of calm & serenity & intimacy. who couldn't use this in new york?!
it reminds me of a production that i worked on called, 'the tower of babel' at PS122. a room filled with 25 people laying in bed while others told them a bedtime story in various languages. i cherished being a part of it as you get to experience intimacy with another human in a very tranquil way. read john delsignore's review of it here.
there really is no greater comfort than laying in bed with someone...snuggle up...
people lay in bed with each other or with random strangers, in a very relaxed atmosphere while images and sound dance through their heads. it evokes a sense of calm & serenity & intimacy. who couldn't use this in new york?!
it reminds me of a production that i worked on called, 'the tower of babel' at PS122. a room filled with 25 people laying in bed while others told them a bedtime story in various languages. i cherished being a part of it as you get to experience intimacy with another human in a very tranquil way. read john delsignore's review of it here.
there really is no greater comfort than laying in bed with someone...snuggle up...
Friday, September 12, 2008
my stepping stone for today.
well, cassendre, you totally helped me get off the ground! stella, you inspired me to write again. i am blessed in so many ways- thank you world. yesterday, as cassendre came over to hang out, chat, go for a walk/run & jazz show our hang out totally changed direction. i showed her my own cello playing that i put on youtube. totally fearful of putting myself out there i did it anyway. because i was totally scared, i showed it to her. that is a new thing i am doing. being courageous (aka- having fear, but doing it anyway). kinda like my jumping off cliffs into the ocean, it may hurt, but likely, everything's gonna be alright. (ironically, bob marley is singin those exact words to me right now!)
well...in the past i was 'courageous' in a very passive way (so instead of jumpin i just kinda slid...) ...self promotion of myself & my art is the hardest thing i've ever done. photography, yeah, it's a little easier, because you cannot see me, hear me, or know my mistakes (well, maybe that one). with me playing my music, oh man! it's like being naked in front of the world. bad notes resonate in my ears like fireworks.
seeking perfection in all aspects of my life has not led to progress. no responsibility: no real breakthroughs. i am not perfect, quite frankly, no one really is. but on the flip side, we are all perfect in our own way, with our own blemishes. ego, pride, vanity: they're all inside this lovely head of mine.
cassendre actually edited my own cello video as i perspired next to her (i rarely sweat). to put my own name down, especially next to the word 'cellist', and more fearfully, to have a connection to music was too overwhelming for me. i'm all about promoting musicians, befriending musicians, dating them, listening to music non-stop, DJ-ing in the office, and photographing festivals: pretending that i am 'in it' (when i am actually just a spectator). what'd i'd love is to be part of a rockin band (like rasputina, jigsaw soul, or si se) & also play cello & perform in dance performances (alvin ailey or alonzo king's line dance troupe). am i doing that...no...not recently. do i have connections to nearly each one of those groups, yes.
what is the plan now? to link myself to my own creations. to be ok with failure, or even, hell, with greatness! and to laugh & dance along the way. will i at least give myself a shot... shutters in my body...! yes, i will.
well...in the past i was 'courageous' in a very passive way (so instead of jumpin i just kinda slid...) ...self promotion of myself & my art is the hardest thing i've ever done. photography, yeah, it's a little easier, because you cannot see me, hear me, or know my mistakes (well, maybe that one). with me playing my music, oh man! it's like being naked in front of the world. bad notes resonate in my ears like fireworks.
seeking perfection in all aspects of my life has not led to progress. no responsibility: no real breakthroughs. i am not perfect, quite frankly, no one really is. but on the flip side, we are all perfect in our own way, with our own blemishes. ego, pride, vanity: they're all inside this lovely head of mine.
cassendre actually edited my own cello video as i perspired next to her (i rarely sweat). to put my own name down, especially next to the word 'cellist', and more fearfully, to have a connection to music was too overwhelming for me. i'm all about promoting musicians, befriending musicians, dating them, listening to music non-stop, DJ-ing in the office, and photographing festivals: pretending that i am 'in it' (when i am actually just a spectator). what'd i'd love is to be part of a rockin band (like rasputina, jigsaw soul, or si se) & also play cello & perform in dance performances (alvin ailey or alonzo king's line dance troupe). am i doing that...no...not recently. do i have connections to nearly each one of those groups, yes.
what is the plan now? to link myself to my own creations. to be ok with failure, or even, hell, with greatness! and to laugh & dance along the way. will i at least give myself a shot... shutters in my body...! yes, i will.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
music festival clips
For some film clips from the Bonnaroo, GrassRoots, & All Points West festivals, check them out here
As of this summer, I've seen all the bands I've wanted to see in my life, except for Tori Amos. Pretty cool, huh? But there's always more music, great acts, & festivals to explore. As long as I have my hearing & my hips to get me to groove, I'm there.
As of this summer, I've seen all the bands I've wanted to see in my life, except for Tori Amos. Pretty cool, huh? But there's always more music, great acts, & festivals to explore. As long as I have my hearing & my hips to get me to groove, I'm there.
a great site
short & to the point. thank you. you know, i don't like peas, but this is different:
lettuce prey four whirled peas
lettuce prey four whirled peas
be like ET
photo: ©2008 Kim Boldrin
time flies. each moment can be our last. enjoy the ones you are with. ask the questions you are too afraid to ask. do the things you are too fearful of doing. the world can use some compassion. we all have it inside of us, it's just these fear walls are keeping us 'safe,' or so we think. touch one another-spiritually & physically. human touch, inspiration & movement can lead to greatness.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
morning yearning...
for the voice, the lyrics, the strings, the dancers, and for the director (Heath Ledger)
what an absolutely beautiful, magical song. it's been on repeat for 2 days now...filling my space with such love & inner soul dancing
what an absolutely beautiful, magical song. it's been on repeat for 2 days now...filling my space with such love & inner soul dancing
great wine
new favorite wine:Tilia Cabernet Sauvignon from Argentina
This is the label, but look for the Cabernet. The Malbec is supposed to be great as well.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
diggin the words
i personally felt a love for this gent when my pal jess shared about his rap for a mis-hap in the spelling bee & her own spelling mishap. i had it too, my word: garage. this year i finally got vindication when someone asked me how to spell it. here's to all our spelling word bee championships gone awry.
to those who love wordage: MC mr. napkins
to those who love wordage: MC mr. napkins
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Talent Show! updates
there are 21 videos in the series from Talent Show! see them here:
featuring: Cassendre Xavier, George Mel, Nana Mensah, Ransel, Andrajennique, Karen Reed, Aaron Green, Juan Pagan
A huge thank you again for everyone that made this day happen!
Trevor's perfect union
Trevor produced this music cut of Obama's speech for the Talent Show! & now made into a video. it's perfect... thanks for putting this out there Trev~
Monday, August 18, 2008
Monday, August 11, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
upcoming free shows
Summerstage & Prospect Park Bandshell
Sunday, August 03, 2008
From 3:00 PM to 7:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Jamie Lidell
Janelle Monáe
Little Jackie
Jose James
Gilles Peterson
Monday, August 04, 2008
From 6:30 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
The National
Yeasayer
Plants and Animals
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
From 8:00 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Sonny Rollins
Thursday, August 7, 8 p.m.
Ailey II
Celebrate Ailey’s 50th anniversary with the extraordinary artists of Ailey II, universally renowned for merging the spirit and energy of the country’s best young dance talent with the passion and creative vision of today’s most outstanding emerging choreographers.
Friday, August 08, 2008
From 8:00 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Jennifer Muller / The Works
Erica Essner Performance Co-Op
An evening of contemporary dance from two New York City-based choreographers known for combining soul-stirring themes with physical daring.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
From 3:00 PM to 7:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
An Unexpected Mexico
Kinky
Alejandro Escovedo with Strings
Pistolera
The diversity and vibrancy of Mexican culture comes to Central Park with music, food, crafts, art and giveaways. Presented in association with National Geographic TRAVELER and Mexico Tourism.
Saturday, August 9, 7 p.m.
Prospect Park Bandshell
Hal Willner's Bill Withers Project
Nona Hendryx, James “Blood” Ulmer, Sandra St. Victor, and Glen Hansard of the Frames will be among the ensemble cast, but expect surprises and late additions. “No one puts on a better tribute concert than Hal Willner ... a sympathetic and generous listener with an almost preternatural ability to match performer to song, and a Rolodex to back it up.” (Variety)
Sunday, August 10, 2008
From 7:00 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
CineFest Brasil
Out of Tune, directed by Walter Lima Jr.
Maria Rita
Music from a Brazilian superstar precedes a documentary. Presented in association with CineFest Brasil.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
From 7:30 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Jill Scott
Wyclef Jean
Thursday, August 14, 2008
From 7:00 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Brotherhood Tour: Featuring Los Lonely Boys & Los Lobos
Two trailblazing Latino rock bands in a very special evening concert. Presented in association with Globe Star Media.
Friday, August 15, 2008
From 7:00 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Bajofondo
Osunlade & The Yoruba Soul Orchestra
South American beats from Argentina and Uruguay mixed with house, trip-hop and lounge sensibilities to create “tango electronic,” complete with striking video imagery.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
From 3:00 PM to 7:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Battles
Black Dice
Gang Gang Dance
A whole day of home-grown bands that have garnered an international reputation as experimental sonic groundbreakers.
Sunday, August 03, 2008
From 3:00 PM to 7:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Jamie Lidell
Janelle Monáe
Little Jackie
Jose James
Gilles Peterson
Monday, August 04, 2008
From 6:30 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
The National
Yeasayer
Plants and Animals
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
From 8:00 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Sonny Rollins
Thursday, August 7, 8 p.m.
Ailey II
Celebrate Ailey’s 50th anniversary with the extraordinary artists of Ailey II, universally renowned for merging the spirit and energy of the country’s best young dance talent with the passion and creative vision of today’s most outstanding emerging choreographers.
Friday, August 08, 2008
From 8:00 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Jennifer Muller / The Works
Erica Essner Performance Co-Op
An evening of contemporary dance from two New York City-based choreographers known for combining soul-stirring themes with physical daring.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
From 3:00 PM to 7:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
An Unexpected Mexico
Kinky
Alejandro Escovedo with Strings
Pistolera
The diversity and vibrancy of Mexican culture comes to Central Park with music, food, crafts, art and giveaways. Presented in association with National Geographic TRAVELER and Mexico Tourism.
Saturday, August 9, 7 p.m.
Prospect Park Bandshell
Hal Willner's Bill Withers Project
Nona Hendryx, James “Blood” Ulmer, Sandra St. Victor, and Glen Hansard of the Frames will be among the ensemble cast, but expect surprises and late additions. “No one puts on a better tribute concert than Hal Willner ... a sympathetic and generous listener with an almost preternatural ability to match performer to song, and a Rolodex to back it up.” (Variety)
Sunday, August 10, 2008
From 7:00 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
CineFest Brasil
Out of Tune, directed by Walter Lima Jr.
Maria Rita
Music from a Brazilian superstar precedes a documentary. Presented in association with CineFest Brasil.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
From 7:30 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Jill Scott
Wyclef Jean
Thursday, August 14, 2008
From 7:00 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Brotherhood Tour: Featuring Los Lonely Boys & Los Lobos
Two trailblazing Latino rock bands in a very special evening concert. Presented in association with Globe Star Media.
Friday, August 15, 2008
From 7:00 PM to 10:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Bajofondo
Osunlade & The Yoruba Soul Orchestra
South American beats from Argentina and Uruguay mixed with house, trip-hop and lounge sensibilities to create “tango electronic,” complete with striking video imagery.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
From 3:00 PM to 7:00 PM
Central Park SummerStage
Battles
Black Dice
Gang Gang Dance
A whole day of home-grown bands that have garnered an international reputation as experimental sonic groundbreakers.
Saturday, August 2, 2008
a good day
life gets pretty funny when you're up for 23 hours, help get your friend find some excitement, & end up talking w/my pakistani taxi driver about the benefits of raising a family half a world away so they can have a good life. ...fyi: med school there starts @ 16 yo.
when the admiration from the day comes from an 9 yr old who's taken a portrait of me & making sure i get my nap on the bus... yeah... life can get no better... ;)
also, learning coney island has yoga rollerskating...the place is a mess, but oh so wonderful. when are the lizard lady & the tiniest human going to rule the land?
when the admiration from the day comes from an 9 yr old who's taken a portrait of me & making sure i get my nap on the bus... yeah... life can get no better... ;)
also, learning coney island has yoga rollerskating...the place is a mess, but oh so wonderful. when are the lizard lady & the tiniest human going to rule the land?
Sunday, July 27, 2008
oh my...
has anyone else had the experience of crying at their own wonder of what they are capable of? as in the beauty they can bring into life? not sure if it's hormones or realizing that some of my photos are really quite beautiful, but i've brought myself to tears putting the grassroots festival video together & a new project of children. it's part wonder, part appreciation, and part fear -the oh shit, i can do this, i have got to do something with this part of me!
music to fall asleep to
emotional intelligence & romantic relationships
upon being with myself & cleaning house i found a great little site on relationships. take it for what you will. guide yourself to the links also for further reading. is there a person who is completely self-actualized & in a completely healthy relationship, i am not sure. i think we can all learn a little & start from there:
emotional intelligence & romantic relationships
emotional intelligence & romantic relationships
Monday, July 21, 2008
GrassRoots Festival: a foto film. July 17-20, 2008
I went into this festival preparing for the worst, hoping for the best. Days before I remembered: I am going for awesome music & to see my dear friend--what fun!! And yes, indeed, this trip was one of the best, most memorable of my days.
Just the highlights:
a safe ride up with 2 filmmakers & a musician who were all really chill & totally open to have another unknown person join the car
Wegmans market crunchy peanut butter & water fill station (can we all learn from them?!)
Thousands of One: my new fav for sure.
No shoes for 4 days, swimming in the creek, & making a headpiece of chamomile flowers (my fav sandals are still in Ithaca)
Kevin Kinsella. What a phenomenal group! Danced & took some fotos & realized my world is quite small as the chicks I was with were housemates with these folks.
Lee Boys got everyone dancin like crazy!
The mud kids!
Healing Arts tent & amazing healer Reingold. I am not certain I believe all he says, but he gave me incredible insight into what an amazing art healing can be & how to get back to earth.
To the soundtrack of John Brown's Body, I made my journey to the beautiful lava wall (a screen that projected a lava-lamp type display). Travels along the way include: a small city full of glow people: darkness with dancing people wearing glow everything and spinning glowing hula hoops. A one-shot game of flip cup with a win! The base of the lava wall: a converted school bus with a stuffed wolf prepared for howling at the full moon. And, finally the lava wall that was far more beautiful from afar, partially due to the real negative attitude of the people inhabiting the wall. I returned after what seemed like a day and danced with such happiness to some enchanting music.
Watching Shane be loving with someone while dancing was one of the most beautiful moments I have witnessed in my life. Seeing him wrap his arms around his adored so gently & perfect warms my heart. She left & left him hanging onto our arms, but still, for a few moments it was pure heaven. Lying on the earth telling him how I experienced the moment was magical in itself.
*************
Being in this tranquil place, swimming in the morning, sleeping on the earth, walking for days without shoes & being surrounded with family & lightness & good tunes is what I am craving. For the first time I was not excited to come home; even seeing the Manhattan skyline didn't give me flutters like it usually does. Last night, instead of hearing guys play a guitar outside my tent I heard a gunshot & alarm bells. Somehow, the little ditch in the dirt was more comfortable than my most comfortable bed. Mud-laden feet are far more endearing than pollution-filled facial sweat. It itches at me like that little mosquito bite on your pinky toe that you try to ignore. I have finally found what I call my puzzle pieces: the people in my life that are surrounding me right now are exactly what I need & want. I feel in harmony. Do I have everything, no, but isn't that the journey of life?
The question arises: what to do, where to go? I no longer feel the desire to live amongst concrete & want to return to the earth, especially escape the winter & live on a beach, but I want to have my people with me. Do I take my puzzle pieces with me to a new beach home; do I place my puzzle on the ground, be thankful of fitting it together, swim out to the water sola & hope they are there when I return; or, do I find a place in the middle without escaping the winter & exploring the world as I want to so I can mix nature & my peeps? Happiness is best when shared, I know that. I can make friends anywhere, but I do not want to miss out on time with these people that I truly care about. Nor do I want to live my life for others as one day they too will take their own path from here. We never know what can happen at a given moment...but I know that I have true love in my heart for mankind & am truly blessed & thankful for all that I have in my life. So, for that I live right now, right here, until I get there...Thank you Grassroots for getting me back in touch with my own grassroot harmony.
see here for my pal Olivier's film. i especially love the bubble blowers:
or click here to see the film & more fotos: Love Revolution, GrassRoots Festival July 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
step back, slow dance
another old soul, mixed with electronica (~portishead, M.I.A.) = entrancing:::
Martina Topley-Bird (Anything album)
Also, check out her new one, Valentine, here
(ps. love the new limachips site!)
your waltz captures me
your slow gaze filters out the shadows of mankind
the trickling of blood struggling to pass through my veins
reminds me of the uncertainty of life...
to be gracious & grateful of each moment.
© kim boldrini 2008
Martina Topley-Bird (Anything album)
Also, check out her new one, Valentine, here
(ps. love the new limachips site!)
your waltz captures me
your slow gaze filters out the shadows of mankind
the trickling of blood struggling to pass through my veins
reminds me of the uncertainty of life...
to be gracious & grateful of each moment.
© kim boldrini 2008
Sunday, July 13, 2008
hot chix bands!
Today, they happen to be chix with very simple names & old styles:
emily jones
april smith
I saw her band last night and damn, I was blown away! Highlight songs: Beloved, Bright White Jackets, Colors, & Wow & Flutter. CD release party at the canal room on 7.22.08 - be there, you will love it! the band was totally into playin around w/each other & the audience. We played our keys with the band at their request. I tried to get a tambourine, but none available. I think that is my instrument of choice for now. this is one of the greatest characteristics of a performer: to bring us into their world. and yes, i got there. nothin' like feelin part of the family.
Afterwards, the keyboarder tried convincing a chix how it's great to flirt with people while being involved with someone else, how it keeps a relationship alive. I suggested it can get you into some trouble. He admitted he hasn't been in a relationship in more than 2 years. Perhaps, I said, that is why...silly.
emily jones
april smith
I saw her band last night and damn, I was blown away! Highlight songs: Beloved, Bright White Jackets, Colors, & Wow & Flutter. CD release party at the canal room on 7.22.08 - be there, you will love it! the band was totally into playin around w/each other & the audience. We played our keys with the band at their request. I tried to get a tambourine, but none available. I think that is my instrument of choice for now. this is one of the greatest characteristics of a performer: to bring us into their world. and yes, i got there. nothin' like feelin part of the family.
Afterwards, the keyboarder tried convincing a chix how it's great to flirt with people while being involved with someone else, how it keeps a relationship alive. I suggested it can get you into some trouble. He admitted he hasn't been in a relationship in more than 2 years. Perhaps, I said, that is why...silly.
like a dove...
letting go of a love is a simple thought, not so easy to do. i know in my heart that i have incredibly true, wonderful, adoring feelings for you. i open my hands, & declare that i am letting go of the dream of marrying you. what i had been doing is not working: trying to make someone be my boyfriend does not work. did i ever ask you to be it, no, should i have? wanting to be important to someone when they are not ready/willing to commit is so depressing. it causes me much sadness, feelings of unworthiness & defeat. i know when i am like this, i make you nervous & closed up. perhaps it is the lack of the continuous chase, but after a while, who needs to keep playing that game? just declare a win- you chased me & then i chased you & you won me & i won you: basta ya! i stand for loving you. alas...i declare to let all that go: to be free, confident & respectful. i changed the path that was not working. i made an offer to be friends: accepted.i need my heart to mend. so, here is to another day of letting the dove go. deep breath. blow the dandelion.
song of the day: Emiliana Torrini Sunny Road
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
jazz, rock & the mind
in a book called the secret power of music, i have reread that jazz & rock music throw the body & mind off the rhythmic pattern & can have very negative effects on the system- as our heart, lungs, & brain all work on a rhythm. perhaps this is an insight as to why so many rock & jazz musicians use drugs to relax their minds & calm them down- perhaps the music really is messing with the harmony of the body & mind. look at jimi hendrix, janis, curt cobain, and so many other people that gave their life to music- the lifestyle got 'em. i haven't got to the part that says which music is good for the soul, but perhaps it is techo/electronica w/a steady beat, or jack johnson who just sounds like the steady flow of Hawaiian waves.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
el dia de independencia
...today's lesson: being open & vulnerable. it is very easy for me to be honest & loving & giving to others, but not easy for me to be open & vulnerable to receive someone else's care/adoration.
but why can i still be incredibly loving & giving & open with someone who has already deceived or hurt me? because it already happened. i can expect it; i know how it will go down & plan for it then recover. with me being vulnerable i am constantly looking for the dagger: sneak attack behind the back! an act so painful because in the crevices of my brain i thought the deceit would come anytime, & i am constantly pretending that i trust, hiding that i am terrified of being vulnerable. when the lie does come, my world crashes in on me. it is worse than expecting to be let down because, for a time, i trusted & opened myself to the possibility that someone would be true and good to me.
so...what do i do to let go? it is a constant battle to live right in the moment. every day i have to catch myself. i want to make those skeletons disappear for good! it is time to learn this lesson: how to open to my heart.
i want a simple life & simple love with beauty, independence, & inspiration. i know it is possible. it does not have to happen at this moment; but it is going to take some work, like gardening.
...on that note...do plants ever have feelings of fear during storms or while people walk through gardens? i mean honestly, are humans the only ones who suffer from past influences? why do flowers not fear to open up & show their beauty after they are cut from the stem, poorly watered, and battered from the wind? being conscious can't just be a human thing...can it? maybe we have a lot more to learn from nature than we ever thought...be true to yourself, beautiful, & open always.
but why can i still be incredibly loving & giving & open with someone who has already deceived or hurt me? because it already happened. i can expect it; i know how it will go down & plan for it then recover. with me being vulnerable i am constantly looking for the dagger: sneak attack behind the back! an act so painful because in the crevices of my brain i thought the deceit would come anytime, & i am constantly pretending that i trust, hiding that i am terrified of being vulnerable. when the lie does come, my world crashes in on me. it is worse than expecting to be let down because, for a time, i trusted & opened myself to the possibility that someone would be true and good to me.
so...what do i do to let go? it is a constant battle to live right in the moment. every day i have to catch myself. i want to make those skeletons disappear for good! it is time to learn this lesson: how to open to my heart.
i want a simple life & simple love with beauty, independence, & inspiration. i know it is possible. it does not have to happen at this moment; but it is going to take some work, like gardening.
...on that note...do plants ever have feelings of fear during storms or while people walk through gardens? i mean honestly, are humans the only ones who suffer from past influences? why do flowers not fear to open up & show their beauty after they are cut from the stem, poorly watered, and battered from the wind? being conscious can't just be a human thing...can it? maybe we have a lot more to learn from nature than we ever thought...be true to yourself, beautiful, & open always.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
summertime...and the living is easy...
long strolls in the park, laughing children, & ice cream. this is what life is all about!
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
inspiring photography!
niki berg photography
I am deeply touched & moved by your photos, especially the ones of you
and your family growing together. Thank you for sharing your life so
openly & being very inspiring in your words. Your photos are amazingly
beautiful, simple, and deep. You gave me some inner light tonight. I
used to work at a cancer hospital and left to pursue photography &
have reconsidered the way I want to make a positive impact on the
world; seeing your photos reminded me that I can do it in any medium I
choose, including photography.
I am deeply touched & moved by your photos, especially the ones of you
and your family growing together. Thank you for sharing your life so
openly & being very inspiring in your words. Your photos are amazingly
beautiful, simple, and deep. You gave me some inner light tonight. I
used to work at a cancer hospital and left to pursue photography &
have reconsidered the way I want to make a positive impact on the
world; seeing your photos reminded me that I can do it in any medium I
choose, including photography.
the most beautiful sad music
JIGSAW SOUL
cockroach hotel:
anchor:
how do they make two puppets look so beautiful?
listening to the lyrics is even more moving:
your lips brought a smile back
who could have guessed how this love would grow
from strangers to the girl i love & hold
...i'll be your anchor on your journey forth...
so good to be privileged to be connected to the talents of the city
cockroach hotel:
anchor:
how do they make two puppets look so beautiful?
listening to the lyrics is even more moving:
your lips brought a smile back
who could have guessed how this love would grow
from strangers to the girl i love & hold
...i'll be your anchor on your journey forth...
so good to be privileged to be connected to the talents of the city
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