XO: we all win when we play the game

why do i try so hard, why do i care so much...when you don't seem to.

why do i let myself feel worthless, undignified, frustrated, pathetic, stupid, duped, resigned, out of control, & confused as hell?

why do i keep generating love like it exists from a fountain that knows no end? does it? sometimes i think it just might stop pumping & i will be an ugly old hag: sad & lonely & cynical... without love in my heart, for even just me alone.

at these moments i remember what i want to create in my life & in the world: abundant love & beauty & peace & inspiration. the walls glow & sparkle like diamonds (*yes!) (but so much cooler because no one gets hurt by them being there.) i am loving to everyone and they know it, just know it. i will be easy-going, calm, and smooth...i need not suffer anymore to know what it is like to be alive. i need not try living up to this idea of me being a saint by being a martyr. i will have ease & freedom, and abundance, and grace, and love, and wealth, and security...i deserve it...and so do you...we all do... 

i love me and i love you. you love you and you love me. simply...just be.  

foto collage: ⓒ 2008 kim boldrini

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xox      ( i just remembered this game...play with me)

art day today!

Must be an art-kinda day...all in all...
Well, from an invite to a clothing charity event, to a website I cannot believe really exists, I was linked to this site of Tara McPherson - she's got some really great poster art, as shown here.

Also went to several Chelsea Galleries & a great, great jazz show! Of particular interest in the galleries were Aperture, ArtGate, and Ceres.
Aperture has a documentary series of the 1968 invasion of Czechoslovakia by the Soviet Union. The Czech President didn't realize they were being invaded & told his countrymates to chill out & let the Soviets do their thing- do not put up a fight...how horrible! Josef Koudelka shot the event during the first 7 days & the photos were sneaked out of the country & into the US. What an ordeal. The photos, though shot while an invasion is happening, are eerily tranquil & beautiful. They show the desire to connect to the troops, saddness at loss, and your usual war anger, but it seems as though there is a filter of complete calmness exhibited from the artist's eye. This really is a must see.
Ceres gallery has some very creative altered landscape work and great use of silkscreening mixed medias. It was a complete inspiration & creative push for myself & my friend. Of note, the owner, Stephanie, is a lovely woman to chat with & full of insight & education.
ArtGate has some great Chinese artists with a focus on magical realism: angels with blood-stained wings, and men upside down seemingly supported by another person.

Then off to PLG Art's montly: Jazz at the Ink Well in BK- featuring the Akie Bermiss Quartet, and damn, did they play some excellent tunes! A mix of funk, jazz, & hip hop - a stellar mix for me, as I am still a newbie w/jazz & cannot take extended play. They were energetic, inspirational, & seamless. You would have no idea it was their first time jamming together! Quick list of songs - my funny valentine, if i only had a brain, & sir duke. I posted the videos here, may you bless yourself & see them. I was surprised by an artist friend & his daughter from Berlin- great people!