letting go of a love is a simple thought, not so easy to do. i know in my heart that i have incredibly true, wonderful, adoring feelings for you. i open my hands, & declare that i am letting go of the dream of marrying you. what i had been doing is not working: trying to make someone be my boyfriend does not work. did i ever ask you to be it, no, should i have? wanting to be important to someone when they are not ready/willing to commit is so depressing. it causes me much sadness, feelings of unworthiness & defeat. i know when i am like this, i make you nervous & closed up. perhaps it is the lack of the continuous chase, but after a while, who needs to keep playing that game? just declare a win- you chased me & then i chased you & you won me & i won you: basta ya! i stand for loving you. alas...i declare to let all that go: to be free, confident & respectful. i changed the path that was not working. i made an offer to be friends: accepted.
i need my heart to mend. so, here is to another day of letting the dove go. deep breath. blow the dandelion.
Keep your hands open. After letting it go, you now have a space to openly receive. No grasping needed.
ReplyDeleteI'll hang with you on the sunny road... I'm totally here for you. <3
STELLA !!!!! (great moment from streetcar named desire)
ReplyDeletethank you! i love you girl! ;) soon, consider me a lovely tree with space for birds to land on. no pooping though!