I was never a fan of diamonds, actually never wanted one in my life. Lots of judgment on how socially unconscious & shallow they were, maybe even never thinking i was worthy of one. Tonight
, I declared to Jodi & myself that I am buying one-I am going to sparkle, inside & out.I am giving up my old ways of being: my martyr-like, suffering, and self-righteous behavior was killing off any hope for a great life. pretending to be sooooo open to true happiness, inner peace, & love when inside i was terrified & non-trusting & killing myself off for so long b/c i felt like a burden & failure.
so yeah...that did not work. left me alone & depressed & anxious & physically ill. i hurt & suffocated other people along the way, too.
here's to creation time!...i will be non-judgmental, confident, and sparkling. i may slip, but this is my own polished rock to stand on. no more suffering. thank you Jodi for your patience! now my great life is unfolding, and I am creating it.
