'how can you be sure if there is one person meant for you or if there are different people meant for different parts of your life?' that is the line that caught the attention of my now-boyfriend; the evaporating line of my skirt against my bare upper leg must have also aided the cause. so now i sit here after another wonderful picnic in the park further contemplating that line: if there are varied people for the seasons of your life, how do you know if those that came before are still good for you? is there a defining point in which you must let go? should there be a ratio of the pain & drama against the smiles & hugs & touches & caresses shared?
it is uneasy to separate yourself from the umbilical cord that first fed you love, desire, compassion & understanding. it is hard to walk away from that garden that you helped cultivate; the friends & family members that you will not know anymore. the one who was such a part of your existence walks vailed in their own world, no longer knowledgeable of your day-to-day activities. not forgotten, because at one time in your life it was perfect: blissful, carefree, childish, loving, and good...
perhaps it is not supposed to last forever. perhaps that is the sign and/or symptom of growing older...to let things go. to actively contemplate the lives that do not stride besides yours anymore; to make an effort not to call or write.
when all is going well is there a reason to throw a stone & shake up the water? i am not sure...i am still learning these lessons of life.
I too am learning life lessons. Not a professional to say the least.
ReplyDeleteTo love someone, is to love unconditionally is what I learned. Letting go is something we all must learn how to do. We must let go of the past, in order to proceed with a new future. Personally I consider this to be a major feat. There are many memories one could wish to relive. However, we take every step in this life, in stride. We learn along the way. This way we can say that we had a very fulfilling and satisfying life. Is there a reason to throw a stone in the water? Who knows. They say things happen for a reason... Perhaps on this journey of life, we need to divert from one another and experience life along different paths…Be it to learn new things, to find oneself, to better oneself, etc…but perhaps you’ll find yourself on the same path.
Another life lesson learned is that sometimes you cant be sure …there are such uncertainties in life that must be dealt with. Is there a God? What is my life’s calling?
Sometimes there are no answers, just conviction. Its your belief and trust in a person that will guide you. You can let go, but if you believe that you can co-exist with a person then why not? Why is it necessary to make up a ratio? You can let go and be free and still hold onto those that are dear to you.
Perhaps they are not vailed in their own world as you may wonder…perhaps they are wondering the same thought…another life lesson…we shouldn’t assume.
This morning I awoke with the most gorgeous person next to me. I was tired but when she said "good morning," I was given a jolt of life. Sure, there is an epoch for everything in terms of love: the times for fucking, the times for mending broken hearts, the times for loving, the times for complaining, etc.. Right now, I am in love. I enjoy every single moment because the ever-so unfair circumstances of true love can make it a short-lived experience. i play with my lover's hair as we ride the morning train. I take naps with her in Central Park. I love her. That, in retrospect, is all I can do.
ReplyDeletePerhaps there are different people meant for the different parts of our lives. And I suppose they are there for a reason – to help us grow and direct us to find our own journeys in life…And although those times spent with them -- the love, passion, laughter, arguments, dull moments -- was real and great… where does it all go once we decide we are no longer lovers? Where do the shared passion, love and connection go to when we break up? Isn’t the relationship formed as real as the relationship we have with our friends, and acquaintances, perhaps even deeper? How can one, once sensitive, caring, and loving, be so cold, guarded and distant the next? Where did all those emotions go? Was it a mere lie the life we once shared? a propaganda to reach a certain goal? And once ended, no longer needed to be continued in another form? Perhaps because they have fulfilled their purpose in our lives… perhaps the love doesn’t really go away, it’s simply stored in the dark alleys of our memories, hidden till we find another person who can love us completely and hopefully light up all those dark corners...then we’ll finally wake up and understand.
ReplyDeleteThe person who made the last posting seems to suffer of a rather pathetic case of "I did nothing wrong." Perhaps his next step should be to apply for either sainthood or for a license to be tacky, cliche, and simple-minded. It, to be honest, is embarrassing.
ReplyDeleteAm I being rough on him the way the Braves are on the Mets? No. You see, anyone who has the balls to think that people are there "there for a reason – to help us grow and direct us to find our own journeys in life" is naturally egoistic. He is too concerned about his feelings. What about us?
I suggest he downloads 90210, Melrose Place, Dawson's Creek and even Sex in the City to learn what happens once people break-up. I would suggest he reads Ernest Hemingway to get a further insight into the complexities of a love gone sour but that might be more challenging than mixing red with yellow to make orange. People break-up for a reason, sir.
Of course, he should stop downloading rock from the 1960's. "How can one, once sensitive, caring, and loving, be so cold, guarded and distant the next? Where did all those emotions go? Was it a mere lie the life we once shared?"Why doesn't he take some serious self-inventory? Maybe he was lovable one day and the next...
Yeah, it's tough. I can't imagine anything tougher than rooting for the Mets in 1988. But you know, you learn to adjust to life. At least, that's what people are all about. We're just here to teach each other how full of shit we really are.
When Robert E. Lee surrendered at Appomattox, he realized that his army was defeated; that the Army of Northern Virginia had deflated his chances of success.
ReplyDeleteToday, much like in that spring 141 years ago but in a lesser capacity, I must realize that I was wrong. I was spineless, immature, bold but also crass, and in contrast, wrong. I offer my apology to the one who I attacked so viciously.
Without going into much detail, though the attacks seem personal, they are not. They are not personal because they were not intended for you. In the anonymity of the Internet, in this new age of "blogging," I mistook your identity for that of someone else and took a few shots.
I hope my actions are not the cause of any severe emotional consequences.
A little off topic, but the METS rule regardless...1988 was a very long, long time ago. They are ahead of Atlanta. I wouldnt worry so much about the Mets as I would about the Dodgers ;)
ReplyDeleteTrue, the Mets are ahead of Atlanta. True, 1988 was a long time ago. The thing that you must realize is that the Mets are good at one thing: chocking. They will not win the World Series this year or the next. Listen, making it to the playoffs is not good enough. It's all or nothing. Save that, "at least they tried" philosophy for little league (now you wonder why your coach would not put you in).
ReplyDeleteThe Dodgers have lost luster since fucking O'Malley sold the team. However, they will make the playoffs and though they will not win the World Series, they will try their best (double standards go into full effect when talking about my team). And hey, the Dodgers have the best team in the DL. Top that, anonymous asshole.
Paul Lo Duca rocks!!! Batting .312 thus far...I wonder why the LAD could every trade such a fine player.
ReplyDeleteAs part of their good nature and charity run, the Dodgers felt the need to give Pauly to the team from Queens. I mean, even the Dodgers felt sorry for the team from Queens. It's quite sad, actually. I wish Pauly a phenomenal season. Too bad he won't win a World Series in New York. :(
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