voicians - german electronic mix

a snidbit from stella's page

this inspiration is thanks to stella :)
what a great quote from a starbucks cup!

The irony of commitment is that it's deeply liberating- in work, in plan, in love. The act frees you from the tyranny of your internal critic, from the fear that likes to dress itself up and parade around as rational hesitation. To commit is to remove your head as the barrier to your life.

--Anne Morriss, Starbucks customer from New York City. She describes herself as an "organization builder, restless American citizen, optimist"

over the past few months, i've learned to view commitment the same way - as frightening as it may appear, once i commit to something there's no need to 'keep looking.' makes life simple. plain & easy... ZEN

yin mix

dreamland

i forgot how wonderful this song & directing was!

here's the full sha-bang: karen o- hello tomorrow! this is fantastic

winter & the rabbit

winter: today i walked new york; feeling lost at the sights of stores & streets i didn't remember. i was sweating with a fever & head cold & wanting to be curled up with a man that fit perfectly in my arms, lying next to a fireplace watching movies drinking mulled wine.... well...it didn't happen. instead, i dropped off home-remedies for a pal and got quite pissy after not eating & the japanese place i so wanted to eat from wouldn't deliver. i haven't ordered take-out in a year & i just wanted to be catered to today. i left, out of aggravation- how juvenile. after that, i went to the japanese place & ate the meal i so craved- it didn't even have a lot of flavor- that is my one requirement, something tasty, please! i dove deeply into my music as i seem to often do. consider it my own rabbit hole & me alice's white rabbit. but where the hell am i going?
sometimes i am so lost & lonely on this small island of new york. i've been here more than i planned for. seems my mission is finished here. i came here for music & love. i've seen all the music shows i've wanted (sans tori) and resigned at having love in the city. maybe i took the wrong path, but i suppose i am where i am because of where i've gone. not having a path any longer is like being lost & scared at sea. good that i am a pisces that loves water & can swim, but still...it's not comfortable. maybe this is what i need to do - just be zen; be at ease with the boredom and stop looking.

i remember 11th grade english class. mr. kelly the older lean & toned runner teacher-man let me sit on the window seat. somewhere in-between being a rebel & a loner, i stared out into space day in, day out, listening to his stories & lessons. i was adept at english composition & story lines, & bored. i was looking for something greater in life through that large window that faced the hill & baseball fields. he came over one day & said 'it looks like you're looking for your long-lost friend.' perhaps mr. kelly, i have always been looking for that person. perhaps i have found him & subsequently lost him to my own ego, pride, and vanity. the three evils- people do not teach you this in school. you read, study, memorize, & compose essays. no-one ever said how to keep people in your life, treat yourself well, or do what you have got to do to make a great life. i suppose i self-taught this with music. maybe not the best teacher, but it's what hits me the most. those english-class essays often were filled with music quotes or sub-plots eluding to a song's melody. the margins of my books & notebooks filled with line-after-line of songs. music is so ingrained in my life that i can seriously get bogged down & forget that it is not a life-source.
lately, i've really gotten into a nice blend of french hip hop, electro-tango, sweet female vocalists, reggae, and hard-hittin brit & indian pop. i've made mixes & sunk into myself in this way...but really, what does it matter? why do i keep on writing on this blog, grabbing songs, making mixes, putting together Talent Show!, and staying on this computer till 3am?! i think i am somehow going to 'get found' for my mixes & my love of & appreciation for music. i think someone is going to call & ask that i make a soundtrack to their stellar film & people will go bonkers for the timing of music & motion...but kid...this ain't happening...yet. yeah, i made some great foto films & mixes that i'm proud of, but i stopped shooting after the crash of my camera & loss of inspiration in this here city. i suppose this is the 'dip' people fall into. damn fucking rabbit.

Burma VJ, a documentary comprising smuggled footage of the uprising against the military dictatorship in Myanmar, debuted in North America over the weekend at the Sundance Film Festival.

Myanmar, often referred to as Burma, has been under military control since 1962. The film offers a firsthand account of the protests in the capital city of Rangoon that began in August of 2007 led mostly by students and women. By September, mostly Buddhist monks led the protest. It debuts at the Film Forum in May.

barack: a transformed man.

what a speech - so indicative of the transformation of our country & our times. things will not be any different; we will see things as they are, but with new eyes & this is how the world will transform into love, community, and pride.
thanks to all the people of the world who made this possible, we all made a difference. thanks to barack for stepping up! now, it is us, the people of this great nation that must step up & support him in what he sees fit. we believed in him & now we must follow suit- no more sitting back waiting for the world to change- we have to get to work & take responsibility, to each his own & then on to your neighbor, community, and world...this is the process. this is so freakin landmark-y it's great.

Above is Max's photo! from York & 90th -he's a rockin photographer & friend! it's all over the news! yes to you!
More PHOTOS of the Inauguration!

Waiting On The World To Change - John Mayer

patience & calm

"may random find you well"...those are words marc uses sometimes in his blog...tonight, random found me well... this is an excerpt from a note i wrote tonight:::

"a great thing i found- peace"
my friend wrote me this quote today, and it comes at the perfect time: "Beyond the ideas of wrong and right, there is a field. I will meet you there."

on a journey to discover new music tonight, i stumbled across a treasure: the missing pieces of my sanity. in pandora's box exists a photo and a few words that gave me clarity with you & the situation we have been in. granted, i am putting together a puzzle, but i am good with those things. i wish you were honest with me, from the beginning, it would have made things easy & sweetly transparent. my soul grew because of & in spite of you, so there is no remaking of 'eternal sunshine of the spotless mind' here. maybe you were conflicted, confused, looking for something new/different/homey?...i am not sure... i was always inspired by you & by what we shared, i forgave & was patient beyond my limit, i saw the light at the end of the tunnel, and i gave you my sleeve with my heart on it. now i see that despite our fun & emotional connections, it wouldn't have made a difference. seems there was no chance since before the first day. I'm starting to think my heart can't get anything but a break. lucky for me, i now have little wings of freedom made from peace & clarity.

who knew a guy named tom would connect the missing links in my world so well with computer lingo - perhaps digital communication is clearer than human...

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if you're wondering about my treasure chest...that's for me...kinda like the moment at the end of pulp fiction.

in clearing out my life over the past week, i add several accomplishments: facial, check. massage, check. chakra cleansing, check. dancing, check. mediation, check. yoga, check. swimming, check. clarity, check. peace & peace of mind, check, clearing out the secrets that cloud my life, check. making space, check. financial improvement, check. the lightness of being, check.

SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE!

a must mention--the film: Danny Boyle's::: SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the most beautiful film i have seen in a very long time. complete sensory fulfillment - the plot, colors, photography, directing, and a 'tack-sharp' soundtrack thanks in part to A R Rahman & MIA. the first five minutes drew me in with the Indian 'slum' kids running amuck over tin roofs while the cops chased them down. the combination of film & music couldn't have been sculpted more perfectly. i was there, living that moment visually, while remember my walks there a little over a year ago. i wish i had the voices of the children to share with you all - but the sound clips exist no more. consider hearing 20 children walking behind you, repeating 'hello, hello, hello, hello...' through the slums of Jaipur - there really is nothing quite like it.

LOST: our righteous duty

Jan 21st- a day after the inauguration, the day that LOST premiers again, and a day that my duty to TV & the dharma initiative renews.

After taking the last few weeks to watch season after season, 6 hours at a time, DVD after precious commercial-free DVD, I am ready to delve into TV land and get LOST again. I have to thank Julian for his movie membership & commitment to watching all of the episodes, the movie store for their 'rent 2, get 1 free' specials, Rick for having a relationship breakdown that inspired a trip to Long Island & the beginning of this amazing addiction to LOST, and especially to the creators of this fabulous show for hours of surprisingly splendid entertainment.

This is the first show I've been totally & completely addicted to since my so-called life way back in the day. That show had me fascinated with inner thoughts; music; hot, quiet, distant musicians; and, growing up without wanting to. it seemed to be my life on camera.

LOST is ever-expanding: still a life on camera: human instincts, culture, religion, following dreams & fighting them, taking a stand for what we believe in, and facing our deepest fears. the show really has it all - with a kick-ass cast!

so i will deal with commercials, and a weekly-wait! oh, the agony!
because it is 3am & i have to wake in a few hours, i will take just a moment to pose a few questions that i suppose may be answered in season 5:
desmond & penny- did they make it off the island safely, without the wrath of her father or the island?
how did penny beat the navigational systems & find the crew?
where did the island & the inhabitants move to? will they be safe? will they want to return to non-island life? will the 'oceanic six' semi-superheroes travel through time & space to return to the island?
where is the guy from the mental institute who spoke of the 'number'?
will hurley drive the corvette?
will the man who is looking for the 'oceanic six' find the remainder of the survivors?
what happened to jack that he began his downward spiral into drugs & alcohol? was it the statement 'you shouldn't be raising him' spoken from his half-sister? will he snap out of it & carry forth on his life-mission of fixing all that seems impossible?
why are all of the spirits from the characters speaking contrary to what they would normally say? is it something with the island/dharma mission/their own inner fears?
john & his dad - is that all cleared up?
how many times will ben make me laugh come this season?
juliette & jack - will they meet again?
how did sayid begin work with ben?
what will come of the conspiracy between sun & penny's father?

MONDO party! @ Don Hills

the most fun dance party i've been to in a while! brit rock, girl group & fabulous electronic jams in between!!! sweatin, groovin, & singin along- disco balls, punk rock english hair,

my personal fav of the night: cut copy - lights & music. how fitting!

lights & music on my mind- be my baby one more time (below song only 3:35)

songs of the day

Sara Bareilles
Little Voice (2 Cd Set)
Bottle It Up (Acoustic)

adele
best for last


lauryn hill
ex-factor