death to my cami :(

upon waking fully refreshed & looking out my window & seeing a thin covering of snow i had a genius idea! take pictures of the first snow fall in my beautiful home-town. deep green grass with little white bursts- it was beautiful! stepping outside, into my mom's jacket & out onto our beautiful newly-done deck i took a step onto a sheet of black ice. my legs slipped out from under me & i landed with my back & neck to the stairs, & my dearest cami-friend landed in a very unsettling position. the lens is busted- totally destroyed...oh the pain! i worked with it for about 30 minutes before i left, my yoga routine on the back-burner. to no avail...cami is dead :( it was my pal - i brought it around the city & world for 2 years straight -it's been to more countries & concerts than some people & seen an incredible wealth of smiles & faces of newbies & people i hold dear to my heart. it just plain sucks! my body aches, i've heard buzzing in my ear all day long, and my fingers go slightly numb at times- hopefully this all disappears tonight. even so, i'm more frustrated at not having the camera to work with. it was so handy! i've got my quality camera - to carry it around on a daily basis will be a new challenge. and as i've wanted to do for 2 years, i am going to buy a video camera - a good one w/good quality sound & get to some new projects i'm into. cami may have a second chance at being fixed; if not, there will be a burial at sea for my pal.

black cab sessions!

bloody fucking genius!

halloween parade, nyc 2008

the newest addition of my foto film series: Thriller!

why are people still going without food?!

damnit - there is no need for this anymore!
not in nyc, not in the us, not in india, not anywhere. every weekend in the restaurant i see people order more than they can eat. the portions are huge, tasty, and well-priced. people sometimes throw whole orders out, not taking them home, and not giving them to the needy. i have began a childhood dream of feeding the poor. instead of my dream of mailing my left-overs in the mailbox (kids do not realize bacteria & decay) i am now taking some left-overs from the restaurant & giving them to the needy in nyc. transportation is the number one factor in why people go without food. farms burn food they cannot sell because it is less costly than shipping it out somewhere. so...why do those in need not move closer to farms? work on farms? grow gardens? what other options are out there?! we have all we need within ourselves, including the ability to put a seed in the ground & water it & see it grow to create something life-giving. so we all have to take action to see that this is done. my bringing food can only help a few people at a time - we all need to start with ourselves.

hip hop b-dang b-dang

Ludacris cd-release party w/some hot guests: gold -tooth T-pain, lip-smackin LL, Shawnna & some more katz

attractive girl union - so funny!

Attractive Girls Union Refuses To Enter Into Talks With Mike Greenman

playlist, 1994

fun songs

these 2 guys have somewhat similar looks & after watching indah's dance performance to 'start wearing purple' while wearing a vampire mask, i could not get it out of my head all weekend- even inspired me to play with toys like a lil kid. so, here's to outrageous-ness.

gogol bordello: start wearing purple


tony ferrino: papa bendi

get groovin w/the lee boys!

THE LEE BOYS
w/ Licorice

Tuesday December 9th
Show Starts @ 8pm | $10dos
214 sullivan street between bleeker & west 3rd.


for a glimpse of the movin & shakin that happens when watching them...see this clip (not the best quality, but you get the point)

dad's input

things may be really good & things may get really bad, notice & be okay when things are in the middle.

as cold as it gets, the spring is always going to come.

everything is relative. if you change your life, you are still going to have to deal with circumstances.

to listen to

i just love the tango! so sexy & tranquil.

carlos libedinsky Narcotango
my personal fave: *vi luz y subi (i saw the light & rose...perfect song for me today).

cheers to sunshine

and Care Bears with twinkles for eyes

to being in the 'here & now'
smiling, happiness, free, fun, easy-going-flow, spunk, grace, and to the lightness of being

great new song

kate tucker & the sons of sweden: faster than cars drive

love is not direct moonshine

my ode to my perfectly imperfect life... (a work in progress)

quiet voice, slow-moving, gliding feet
moving & swaying to the rhythm of the beat.

at peace, at rest...then distress.

while drowning in moonshine filled with glee
i am weighed down by the anchor of general lee.

out pours my love & in pours loneliness.

my heart lives in a small, 4-chamber room
where forgotten words & kisses loom

it carries freedom in and burden out
breathe it in and breathe it out.

but while the film plays all that is possible and much more,
my documentary is a broken heart, bleeding on the floor.

i am a broken mess.

options:
support the broken-heart fund & disappear completely
regenerate & be a Care-bear with my diamond-heart necklace

guys at work

one day working side by side with guys- like typical guys...introduces me to a new way to see them (my missing link!). brings me back to my childhood made up game of girls vs boys & boys vs girls.

i have never really worked with (or hung out with) the average guy, just the medical folk or artsy guys - now i have a new understanding of the male race: as football players, loud, aggressive, out for the chase, and ready to pounce on those that are not interested. i guess it's best to learn this lesson some day! best be today.

my life, a foto

the greater picture is developing - like a slow polaroid. splendid.

yes, we did!

a hell-yeah for the united states of america, the world, and all the people in it! here's to a good life, pride, and community :)

thought of the day

why are we spending an additional $150 billion on AIG when the idea of an insurance company is betting that someone is going to fail? why not donate money to businesses that promote success, inspiration, and life?

song of the day.

The Beatles-In My Life

max' show...see it before it disappears.

Details: The Cannibal Eye, Part 1
The Gallery @ New World Stages 343 West 49th Street (between 8th and 9th) 11 am to 6 pm Mon-Sat

shine on you crazy diamond

This is the song for myself today...and from every day here-after.
I was never a fan of diamonds, actually never wanted one in my life. Lots of judgment on how socially unconscious & shallow they were, maybe even never thinking i was worthy of one. Tonight, I declared to Jodi & myself that I am buying one-I am going to sparkle, inside & out.
I am giving up my old ways of being: my martyr-like, suffering, and self-righteous behavior was killing off any hope for a great life. pretending to be sooooo open to true happiness, inner peace, & love when inside i was terrified & non-trusting & killing myself off for so long b/c i felt like a burden & failure.
so yeah...that did not work. left me alone & depressed & anxious & physically ill. i hurt & suffocated other people along the way, too.
here's to creation time!...i will be non-judgmental, confident, and sparkling. i may slip, but this is my own polished rock to stand on. no more suffering. thank you Jodi for your patience! now my great life is unfolding, and I am creating it.

cardboard to caviar

yes... sounds impossible, but not! read up here on the Able Project.

Perhaps our green community in NYC can bring this here! We certainly have a lot of cardboard, we also have horses, ponds, gardens, and sewage!